A moment of Silence for the fics I will never write

World Building With World Anvil

2019-01-31T20:51:35Z

Some of you may know that I write fan fiction. I’ve written it on and off for about a decade and change. The last big project I did with fanfic had so much world building involved in the making of it I’ve decided to restructure it and create something new from the bones. I’ve been on and off world building the bits and pieces of the world the story will come to inhabit, but if anyone is interested in following along, would like to see the progress I’m making in it as I forge ahead would be swell.

Most of the information is staying public until I get closer to publishing, even then I’m seeking either small press or self publishing which gives me some more options. Spoilers for the story will be kept secret and I’ll be adding short stories and snippets to fill out the world as I go.

If you’re interested in following along with me as build Evras from the ground up, you’re welcome to join me either by clicking the link below or by clicking the image at the top of the page. I’ll be mentioning things here as I update the world but if you want to keep up in realtime give it a follow.

Evras

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In other news, I’m still working on the meta post for morally grey characters, I’ve been a bit busier than I expected with work and I’ve started weaving with a friend but I’m hoping to finish the meta within the next three days.

Anyone who’s responded to the forms for the podcast, fear not, I’ve not forgotten about you, I’m hoping to find a spare minute to sit down with my equipment and get something in the bag for a first episode. I’ll be sending out emails for those interested to settle possible dates and such.

Mirrored from Backshift Writer.

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Weekly Round Up

2019-01-21T16:43:09Z

What I’m doing: Not much. It’s post backshift and I’ve been up for a few hours, but I get easily distracted by things. Like getting lost on tumblr, and changing the blog theme for the eightieth time. I spent a lot of the week knitting, will have a post up later with progress or stick on instagram. I got some paperwork signed for surgery, which is also going to need another phone call to the dr about the paperwork, but nothing is ever simple.

What I’m reading: Not much, my headphones are missing, I’m getting a new pair, but given my concentration is fucked so the point I haven’t read much in months, I’m a little miffed. However, I just got a link to a wingfic that I’m hoping to read the crap out of soon.

What I’m watching: Binged A Discovery of Witches this weekend, I need there to be a second season now, in the meantime I’m going to have to reread the trilogy. Roommates and I are watching Titans which is definitely interesting, dark but not grimdark, there’s enough humour and heart to carry it. Star Trek Discovery started up again which is fantastic and I love it to so much. Tilly is the best person ever and I love her. I loved her last season but suddenly this season I’m watching and the first episode just gut punched me with one line, I’m paraphrasing because I can’t find the exact quote: “Don’t die out there. I know it’s dangerous and you’re not supposed to promise things. Lie to me?”

What I’m listening to: Not much at this point, I caught up with Be the Serpent and Writing Excuses podcasts, I lost my headphones and I’ve been without them for two weeks which was just untennable. Dear sweet fuck I hated not having them. I ordered a new set and they arrived today (21.01.19) are charged up and ready to go, so I finally start listening to books again. I’m super behind on my audible list,I’ve got three of the Doomsday cycle books up and ready to go, I also picked up A Hat Full of Midnight and The Truth by Terry Pratchett as I continue to go through the entire discworld set.

Mirrored from Backshift Writer.

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Topics of interest a poll

2019-01-19T23:47:57Z

So I have ideas for meta discussions but nothing really pushing me in a direction yet. So I'm out sourcing the decision.

View Poll: Topics of interest to some

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I’ve been published!

2019-01-15T17:41:17Z

FINNAN BEATON ANNOUNCED AS A ‘DYSTOPIA FROM THE ROCK’ AUTHOR!

I’m so excited to share this with everyone. I’m so happy I can hardly express it.

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Bingo Cards for Writing Stuff

2019-01-13T18:31:03Z

Bingo Cards for Writing Prompts

( Horror Bingo Prompts )

( Trope Bingo Prompts )

( Worldbuilding Prompts )

( Worldbuilding 2 )

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Podcast Related -- A Form

2019-01-13T02:09:14Z

So I'm starting a podcast about fanfic and writing and I decided to create a form to gauge interest in the topic and to see if anyone wants to be on the podcast as a guest/part of a panel. If you have any questions, feel free to comment here or email me at backshiftwriter@gmail.com

Fanfiction and Metatexutal Analysis

It would help me a lot of you shared the link around, to make it easier I'm going to make simple thing you can copy and paste. Thanks for your help!

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Guess what arrived!

2018-12-31T14:01:38Z

So now this is real. I'm a little terrified. I should start working on a script yeah?

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Forays in Paganism

2018-12-31T03:24:00Z

I was sixteen when I discovered the new age section in the library. I had scoured through most ofthe religious texts looking for something that explained things better or more comprehensively than catholicism seemed willing. I found tarot cards, and herbalism, and witchy spells and I was enchanted by all of it but at the time I was having such an angry reaction the news and information coming from the Vatican. Baby queer that I was at the time, I was angry about so much, and I couldn't find any source of comfort in spirituality of any kind when the one I'd been raised in seemed bent on excluding me for things beyond my control.

( Journey through tarot decks and spirituality under the cut )

I finally decided that I want to get back into doing tarot readings. And this time make a Book of Shadows. I suppose I could do a digital book but I love the idea of creating something written out with sketches of plants and spreads I know work. I've yet to start my book, that is a new years project and the notebook is on its way.

This beauty is an Archer and Olive and I've decided since the pages are supposed to take watercolour well I'm going to use it specifically for my book of shadows. I'll be using my bullet journal to collect tarots spreads to test and record some observations with the cards, but the spreads that work will go into the Olive. I also want to get back into herblore and create a witches garden in the backyard.

Actual pictures of how pretty this book is will be forthcoming as soon as it's in my grabby hands. :D

In the meantime, I started using my brand new tarot deck. Linestrider Tarot by Siolo Thompson is absolutely stunning. It's very minimal watercolour aesthetic.

The cards are nice and thick and feel solid. They're bigger than a standard deck of playing cards, but not as big as some tarot decks I've seen or have owned previously. The images are striking with simple colour choices, blending ink and watercolour to suggest as much as it offers.
I'm thinking of getting her other two tarot decks as well, the Hedgewitch Tarot, and the Otherkin Tarot both carry a similar aesthetic and might have better answers for depending on the spread and intention.

Close up!

( interpretation under the cut )

Okay this is already 1300 words and I still have another spread and a load of photos from the spreads I've written down to try. I'll add them to a part two of this and post it later.

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Fandom About Me

2018-12-19T17:34:22Z

Okay folkx, this is the fannish side of things. This is probably what you're here for first and foremost, the about me post is just putting a face on things as it were.

Where am I from Social media wise?: Originally I started on livejournal, migrated here during the at least one social media melt down when this place kicked off in 2009 or 08? I was part of one of the original beta sets but the communities were so tiny and I didn't know how to break in properly so I mostly lingered on Lj while I waited for dreamwidth and tumblr to settle on where fandom was going. I've kept the same name for all three places and it's kind of stuck. Even with me trying to make another name jump to Backshiftwriter which doesn't really stick as anything other than an email but is my main handle for Twitter and IG.

// Twitter // Instagram // Tumblr // AO3 Author Tag

Fandoms I'm involved in: MCU, specifically the relationships between Tony, Steve, and Bucky. I'm hoping to get into the comics a bit more in the new year and 616 canon, but for now it's mostly the movies. I used to write for Hobbit, Star Trek Reboot and Supernatural, you'll find my old fics on my AO3 link above.
( table under the cut to spare my page margins )
What kind of Fandom Content are you going to see here: Fic or headcanons on occasion for MCU. I can write quickly but I have learned that I need to finish what I write before I begin posting. I cannot separate the worth of my piece based on the comments/kudos so unless the engagement is there I tend to torpedo my drive. To counteract this I try to publish complete fics or one shots when I am writing so I don't have to disappoint people in WIP hell, or allow my shortcomings to dictate my enjoyment of writing.

For things I'm not actively in fandom about but have Thoughts™ on I will likely post some meta/commentary on occasionally. Sometimes I will liveblog bits and pieces of what I'm watching if I think about it at the time -- honestly I'm terrible about this but if I'm emotionally compromised there might be some yelling.

Commenting and friending Policies: I don't really have one, I tend to follow back those who follow me and I'm always curious and interested in what's going on my reading page and in your lives. Feel free to drop me a line on any post. I am hoping to get more involved in dreamwidth and actively engage in fandom/social journaling again. Tumblr made things quite easy and passive so this has required relearning the old ways of doing things from the lj days.

Anything else?: A Poll!!

View Poll: What Finn Posts Next

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mephestopheles @ 2018-12-19T04:39:00

2018-12-19T08:41:56Z

Excuse you Power Rangers for going so hard. You movie are absolutely rude and you had no right to use thar acoustic version of Stand by me.

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The Fuckening Begins

2018-12-17T15:59:46Z

Today kicks this week off with a fizzle at least but dear gods this week is gonna be massively busy and full. Roommate the first D, is off today and tomorrow, Roommate two has a weird schedule but technically tomorrow is her day off. I however am working backshift tonight and again tomorrow. So I'm behind the eight ball before the week truly begins.

Last night my brother came home for the holidays so I had supper with my parents last night and finished off the Xmas cards. Which yes you have read that right I am just now sending Christmas cards off. Currently the three of us are heading to Christmas Island post office to mail our letters, the post office in Christmas Island is adorable and they have this gorgeous little stamp that they use for all their mail.

The rest of the list is just a never ending pile of cleaning, baking, last minute shopping and of course decorating.

In the meantime I'm now posting here and doing the tumblr protest thing. If I choose to label my blog as unsuitable or discretion advised that is my choice. I will not have a platform label me as NSFW because I am trans.

I've backed up my two main blogs over there and will upload them or go through their posts to try and fit them here. This issue is going to be finding the original stuff and not the reblogged stuff, I can't imagine the attribution would be correct in all places.

Plans for this blog include setting up a new welcome post at the top instead of a friends only post, something with a few key pieces of info that abbreviations and such make sense.

I'm also setting up the necessary things to do a podcast in the new year. I have a lot of work ahead of me for that but I will be getting it off the ground and rolling once 2019 begins. I'm at this point planning a monthly podcast with an interview format, speaking with fanfic authors from all over fandom. I'm not sure the length of the podcast at this point as I haven't formulated my questions or really worked out a script yet but this is something that feels right.

Other plans include more back and forth about my writing, life posts and how I'm rediscovering paganism and my feelings of faith.

On the health front, I've done something to my knee, I'm not sure how but I've hyperextended it and I'm feeling it. The dog and I need to get walking again in earnest and I'm going to need ice boots for the winter.

I'll be making appts and dropping paperwork off to the dr hopefully this week so it's off my list and I can take care of things in general.

I'm going to be saving for surgery in the new year as well so I'm going to start getting things together to offer from possible tarot readings, art and so forth.

That's it for me.

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I want to do a Podcast about Fanfiction

2018-12-15T17:55:09Z

I want to start a podcast on Fanfiction. I went looking today for something to listen to and was disappointed by the selection. It seems -- based on cursory inspection-- that there are slim pickings for what I'm looking for. The options are comedy podcasts, NSFW podcasts discussing erotica fanfic, fandom specific offerings, and bad fanfic readings.

There isn't anything that looks at the writing of fanfic, the sociopolitical nature of Fanfiction, or even the broader aspects of trying to write fanfic in such a copyright conscious society.

I want to at fandom as a participant and author, someone who has been writing for over a decade and who and point to fandom as the reason I was able to come out.

Writing podcasts are plentiful but inevitably they discuss publishing or the industry as something to work within.

I want to discuss fandom with those who write without the intention of making the jump to publication, or those who have but still find comfort and joy in writing fanfic. I want to discuss the subversive nature of Fanfiction that dares to show that the world is not all cis, all white, or all straight.

I want to talk to writers who have been there when George Lucas banged the gavel on Luke/Han porn. I want to talk to the writers who are just getting started and finding their feet.

I plan on discussing the rise of purity politics and the censorship hidden behind the scenes. Discuss the fact that fanfic which is primarily created by and for LGBTQ+, POC, and women is held to a higher standard and criticised more than the media it deviates from.

I want to discuss the joys of finding the best fic ever and falling in love with the characters all over again.

I've wanted to create a podcast for a number of years but this is the first time I've found an idea that feels like it has legs.

I'm hoping to gauge some interest at this point, or if someone has found this podcast please send it my way. I would love to listen to it. Like I said, so far all I've found is what I've mentioned above or the occasional episode in a writing/arts podcast that spends half its runtime begging the audience to 'give it a chance it's not just for teen girls’.

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Avengers: Endgame

2018-12-09T20:57:37Z

Dear gods, did anyone else see the trailer? Of course you have, are you dying like me? It’s absolutely killing me. Tony, just holy shit, Tony. So now I have to write absolutely painful fic to make it worse.

That’s the goal.

Strife has challenged me to write 10k of fic. That’s it, that’s my max word count. I am kind of petrified. Especially since the idea I have could expand to 100k with a breeze.

But I will perservere and I will beat the shit out of this wordcount. I just have to be strict with my scenes. No dilly dallying with extra shots or places. I think I heard it from Writing excuses that each location change adds 500 words, each character is around the same. I have several location changes planned for Tony but his POV is a travel arc, I can imply many locations, and just keep it to showing about four, max six. The characters and people he meets can be extras, I want his travel and existence to be lonely for a reason.

Steve’s POV is going to have more people that gradually diminishes as the fic progresses. So much tinkering to get this right. Also angst, because it’s me and why write something if I can’t make it hurt a little.

Mirrored from BackshiftWriter.

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Mini Hiatus and under construction

2018-12-07T19:28:24Z

I'm in the process of getting this blog back up and running as I figure out how to crosspost between a few places. This place will primarily be fannish in nature but I'm hoping to get it started, I just have to push it up hill first.

See you soon.

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Cap-Ironman BB 2018 Team Bravo: Drifting Sands

2018-12-07T00:47:17Z

Title: Drifting Sands

Author: Mephestopheles

Artist: Hayluhalo

Universe: MCU with suggestions of 616 and 3490

Rating (both fic and art): Fic Explicit Art: PG

Word Count: 46,364

Warnings: No Archive warnings apply, mentions of torture, homophobia, Tony's criminally ignored PTSD, Steve's not doing at all well either, Amnesia fic and trope used to my own ends, more tags and warnings in fic Angst, some fluff, and smut

Notes: Set during the end of Civil and the intervening year and half before Infinity War, the timeline is an absolute mess, Marvel didn't help itself with the addition of a definitive timeline, and I've made it worse by doing some non-linear things here and there.

Fic Summary: Steve's hurt when he breaks everyone out of the RAFT and is found by Fury but Fury's running out of favours to cash in and Steve's not doing well. It's up to Tony to figure out what's happened and how to fix Steve's memory all the while keeping him off of Ross' radar.

There's just one problem: Steve thinks they're married.

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Link to Art Page

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Interludes of my Still beating heart

2015-06-09T02:29:41Z

Interludes of My Still Beating Heart (94960 words) by mephestopheles
Chapters: 15/16
Fandom: The Hobbit - All Media Types, Tolkien - Fandom
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Bilbo Baggins/Thorin Oakenshield, Thráin/Canonical Wife, Bungo Baggins/Belladonna Took
Additional Tags: Pre-Hobbit, Slow Build, canon has been slow roasted in an oven set @ 225 and carved for it's juicy bits, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Dwarven Politics, Hobbit Culture, hobbit politics, Trans Character, Trans Male Character, Gender politics, Transphobia, Angst, Tags Added per Chapter, Warnings added per chapter, please read the notes, Eventual Relationships, reworking canon to suit my needs, the shire is not all sunshine and roses, Ereborean politics aren't all that pretty either but somewhat more open maybe?, writer does not endorse the views held by their characters, Canon-Typical Violence, It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better, Canonical Character Death, Blood and Gore, Violence, Demisexual Thorin, Thorin is in desperate need of some hand holding at this point, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Transman Bilbo
Series: Part 1 of Interludes of My Still Beating Heart
Summary:

Spring has come again.

Warning for allusions to depression and depressive thoughts.

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Ah so I can finally post here

2015-05-10T22:22:10Z

Started getting active again on Lj, found trope_bingo on here and decided to resurrect the old site. Knee deep in Hobbit fandom for those interested and will be posting a lot of that, along with hopefully some stuff about my original stuff that I'm working on. For whatever reason, Chrome hates the add an entry section so I'm using Firefox again.

Short update for now.

I'm on Tumblr

Mephestopheles if you're interested. Mostly just reblog a bunch of stuff.

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test

2009-06-28T02:09:41Z

testing semagic. . .

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Fic: With the Weight of A Freight Train Dean/Castiel xXx

2009-06-09T02:44:55Z

Title: With the weight of a freight Train
Author: mephestopheles
Rating: xXx
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Warnings: Angst, graphic sex
Spoilers: post 4.20 and just to be safe 4.21
Summary: Dean realizes his feelings. It all goes down hill from there.
Notes: inspired by a quote from Sandman. See quote Below:

( Have you even been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. )

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Serious question time kiddies

2009-06-08T19:20:03Z

I need some advice. I'm looking into freelancing for the summer, article writing, copywriting, etc. Stuff that I can keep doing even when I go back to college in September. But I need some advice, either from those who are involved in the industry, have heard things from other people, anything. I know I'm not going to find "one perfect" job out there, it's going to be a lot of little jobs that will add up to some income, so I'm not going in with blinders on. I hope.

Anyway, does anyone have any advice on freelancing in general? Is there a site I should check out? I've been browsing around oDesk and the examiner.com but these jobs have just been preliminary searches. I have more than enough in qualifications. (6 years of university english/history, and one year of nursing). Among other qualifications. I'm just looking for advice on which sites I should look at, and baring that at least which sites I should avoid.

Pretty please?

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Because we all need more porn ppl!

2009-06-08T17:50:02Z

So I have a meme, that I desperately want to do! And I needs audience participations *evil cackle*

The first TEN people to comment in this post get to request a drabble of any pairing/character of their choosing from me. In return, they have to post this in their journal, regardless of their ability level.

No you don't have to repost if you don't want to. I'll do my best with what you guys give me :D Also if this does have to go over ten awesome, I'll do those as well. I'll keep this open as long as I can keep up with them. :D

So have at!

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Stolen from mythicdove

2009-06-08T12:18:29Z

The desktop meme:

1. Anyone who looks at this entry has to post this meme and their current wallpaper on their Livejournal/Dreamwidth.
2. Explain in five sentences on why you're using that wallpaper!
3. Don't change your wallpaper before doing this! The point is to see what you had on!
( Read more... )
I'm on a serious Castiel/Misha Collins kick. I swear to gods I'm a wee bit obsessed :D

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mephestopheles @ 2009-06-04T13:56:00

2009-06-04T16:58:01Z

( Meme stolen from Bloodkisses! )

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Flist! HALP!!

2009-06-03T03:31:01Z

I'm in desperate need of help! I'm writing fic *bites nails* but it's complete and utter crack. It's Supernatural which is why I'm not sure how many people I'm going to interest in this. But I desperately need beta/handholding anything *wibbles* It's SPN, eventual everything! I'm not sure what's going to happen in this fic, so far it's gen, with overtones of Dean/Castiel. It might end up with a bit of Dean/OMC/Castiel. It's probably going to end up with Dean being the little whore I know and love so much. There's definitely going to be a lot of wing kink, and UST and eye fucking going on. I'm just not sure if it should ever leave my harddrive. The OMC I've been writing for years, which I suppose helps, he has a life outside this particular story and I'm hinting at that, but I just need to know what should be fixed and *flails*

Save me? Please??? Should I create a comm and post friends only to it? Or should I just email those interested? Going back to writing now. *flails away*

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Ficlet: Bruises McCoy/Kirk xXx

2009-05-28T05:10:02Z

Title: Bruises
Author: mephestopheles
Fandom: STXI
Pairing: McCoy/Kirk
Summary: Bones/Kirk porn shortly after end of movie.
Warnings: minor spoilers for the movie. Lots of sex. McCoy being in charge and ordering Kirk around. Kirk getting off on it.
Author's Notes: Product of too little sleep, a third viewing of ST, and a look that crosses McCoy's face on the bridge. So here you are, porn, but not nearly enough of it.

( It's two hours after the ceremony. Yadda, yadda, yadda. Congratulations Captain fucking Kirk. But not just yet. )

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